HAGEN IS A SURVIVOR!!

Good day all!! So... as you can see... Hagen rode his walk of survivorship..... We first arrived to the stadium to find sooo many people... survivors, those in treatment, caregivers and lots of supporters!! We found the table to sign in and get Hagen's shirt.... youth medium wasn't quite his size BUT he still looked GREAT!! Travis said he started to well up when I put it on him.... I waited to well up as we took our first steps around the track... All of the survivors and their caregivers take the first lap while all the others stand inside the track and clap all the way around...Quite an emotional time for us... but we held it together. We met a few other families but didn't get to stay long... We will stay longer next year!! There were lots of things that I know the boys would have enjoyed doing.

This is a pic of Hagen during the first few months of his treatment!!! Hagen never lost his spirit!! He had his moments when he just didn't feel good enough to give us that beautiful smile...or even a smirk but he kept on fighting and WON!!

This pic is of Hagen while we were in Ft. Worth... He was on soooo many meds and steroids that he just grew and grew and grew!! Part of Hagen's personality was to share the many faces or tricks with the nurses and doctors...and of course me to entertain us and he LOVED the attention... Brogan also particiapted when we were in Lubbock... and they still do their cute little faces...most of them.

As you can see.... The Dr.'s are in!! We thought it would be great to reverse roll at Halloween this year..If you can't tell... Hagen was about 10 lbs heavier than Brogan and still about 4 inches shorter!! Thanks to the steroids...He is wearing his glasses there... not very often any more... we have to keep a constant eye (no pun inteded) on him or else he'll take em' off or Brogan will steal them!! TURKEY!! The roll has reversed as far as the weight issue... Brogan is now at least 10 lbs heavier... Hagen has grown a little in height.

Doesn't this picture just make you SMILE!!! We treasure each and every moment we see the boys smile and laugh... INFECTIOUS!!! WE LOVE YA!!

So... As you can see... Brogan (on the right) joined Hagen in bed... the story... Brogan got sick in the middle of the night... didn't cry... just got up and crawled into bed with his bubba... Usually in the mornings... particularly on the weekends... b/c we sleep in a little, Brogan likes to join Hagen in bed... it's so cute!! Also notice...the twin thing... same fingers in the mouth, head facing the same way..

OK... another story... have any of you ever had and anxiety attack....?? panic attack??? Brogan... oh boy!! We went to get the oil changed in my car today.. and mind you..it isn't the first time we have gone...but we go to this place that you just sit in your car while they change it, they clean your windows and offer a drink... (Boltons) and it's a great place to go....anyway....Brogan does NOT like to go.... He gets VERY anxious when they clean the windows....really antsy in his car seat...starts talking a lot..... almost crying.... then they lift the hood.....he started to say...."down" "down" He wanted the hood DOWN!! He did fine... after much talking too and louder music!!

How does he do with the car wash...ya know the kind you can sit in your car and ride through... When I was a kid we LOVED it... thought it was the coolest thing....if mom went without us we didn't talk to her for a day!! Brogan.... NOT SO MUCH.... HE FREAKS... so.... since the boys are usually with me... the car doesn't get washed much... :(

Ok...So... this pic is dedicated to my best bud Janee' . She taught Brogan to "show his teeth" and it is absolutely hilarious.. he does it instantly....usually. The pic above is of Hagen today...yep..he looks great!! He went to school today and had a good day too!! I was excited to see that he was still smilin' when I went to pick him up. I was expecting a tired grumpy little boy and he was still raren' to go!! The pic below...Brogi as daddy likes to call him!! He looks soo much like his bubba in this pic!! As you can tell... I am playing around with some black and white pics.... I love BW.....

We are back to our "normal" routine... Work, school, fast pitch softball...for coach Travis, Sleep... that's a good thing... :) I want to thank all of you for all of your thoughts and prayers!!

On another note... You may have noticed my list of photography has increased... I have been coming across some incredible photographers!! They have some great blogs and one of them I need you to vote for... if you like.... go to www.bloggerschoiceawards.com log in and vote for http://photographybycupcake.typepad.com/frosting_and_sprinkles/

Of course..you may want to visit her site... she has incredible work!! Anyways... Until I blog again.....I'm out!!

Cookies!!

Hello all!! I know I know... it's been forever since I blogged and for those bloggers who blog everyday...you go!! Alot has been going on, especially in the last week. For those who haven't read our carepages Hagen is in the ICU in Lubbock with pneumonia. We are not certain of the type but have a feeling that it's pcp pneumonia... one of the worst types to get. We should know more on Monday eve. hopefully.

Ok...so funny story for you... On Wednesday...I think it was Wednesday... I had layed Hagen down for a nap after we got home from school.. he wasn't feelin' to good and so I decided to do some seed planting with Brogan in one of those indoor seed garden things... They have these little pods full of dirt and you water them and they expand then you plant your seeds and put the cover on em... etc. Well, I had watered them, put Brogan on a stool so he could see and proceeded to tell him not to touch... turned my head and heard....."cookie.... cookie" turned back again and he had picked one of those up and had half of it hanging out his mouth with this look like...um...this cookie doesn't taste so good. LOL....Have I mentioned how Brogan LOVEs food.. just like his momma!!

I suppose that is all for now... Have a great week!!

Hey there!! I am watching a little American Idol and it's a commercial so I have a little time to update... :P I will say that the women this year are 100% better than any of the guys!! I didn't even want to watch them yesterday b/c they are so bad!!

So... Today..... Hagen had a good day at school... He ate good, slept good, played good, and in PT (physical therapy) she was going to be easy on him and once again he did all he normally did!! He is such a trooper!!

After school today I had to unpack all the shorts b/c it was sooo nice again. The boys played while I made a mess and then we changed into our "summer" outfits and went outside!! I actually went for a run... more like a jog...a really s l o w jog. I was hurtn' but it felt good... then the boys drew some pics on the sidewalk and Hagen wanted to eat the chalk... not so good. I was playing with the camera and taking some pics and layed down to get on their level.... then Brogan decided he would lay down too... I will try to download that. Silly boy. Speaking of Brogan the silly boy.. he snuck off and went to the neighbors house and started knocking on their door... of course he came to the door...about the time I got him...and he was shouting "HII" and waving... It was hilarious!! He is not friendly at all....lol

My memory is awful... there was so much that happend today that was hilarious and I thought..oh I have to blog this.... and now I can't remember!! ARGH!! Well..... I suppose that is all for now unless I remember more...I need some FOOD>...FOOOD FOOOOD>.. have I mentioned that I love FOOD!! Have a great night!!

Kell

P.S. So if the pics are a little distorted...sorry..This was a new trick for me.

Hey there!! So.. today was pretty eventful... If you haven't read carepages then this won't be too much of a repeat... Hagen had lab work, which took a while due to the lack of fast flowing blood in his body. The nurses are so awesome there and they did a great job!! Hagen did a great job too...very patient. The news is he is back on steroids temporarily and increased his anti-rejection. We did a lot of singing...his fav. is "the wheels on the bus" and his fav. part is the horn!! It is so cute!! Anyway... after lab draw we stayed for some IV fluids and then the discharge..by then he was pretty tired and I didn't want to send him to school so we went home and then off to have lunch with daddy. When I asked him if he wanted to see daddy he got so excited... then he asked where bubba was... :( Of course all were happy to see him when we went and picked up Brogan...he's not loved at all....lol.. When we got home he finally took a nap and Brogan SOOO wanted to wake him up to play, instead we went outside b/c it was B E A U T I F U L!! outside today. We played with some sidewalk chalk and pulled weeds from the grass...well I pulled weeds...he pulled grass...and dirt...lots of dirt...all over himself...lol.. it was lots of fun and he was NOT a happy camper when we had to come inside for momma to make some chicken sopa!! He was sooo wired and crazy today... again!! Even daddy was getting a little flustered...telling him to "chill out" and that was at bed time. You would think that he would be worn out....OHHH nOO!!

Ok...so are there any dream enterpreters???? I had this crazy dream the other night... Really kinda gross and crazy!! I was a guest at these peoples house...and it was not the "normal" house!! They didn't have much money... they had dirt floors and this really really large....toilet...like so big it was for a giant!! and it didn't flush normally. Then there were these pet rats that they had.... but they had lumps and weird hair and they lived in the mud walls.... and they would come out when you called them.... like a dog...crazy...Oh... don't forget the dead horny toads... They were on the path out front...only they were turned on their backs and there were hundreds...and they cushioned the dirt...that's why they had them.... like walking on padded dirt. They were also giant horny toads... like the size of a mans hand...

Can anyone please tell me what ANY of this means???

Good eve. all!! Is there anyone out there???? Ok.. so I kept Hagen home from school today... Trav and I felt it would be best for him to get his rest since he isn't sleeping good. He slept a little this morning until a large blow out woke him... and then he played a little... watched his fav. ELMO and headed back to the bed... only he didn't make it all the way. He said he was hungry so I fed him a little applesauce and before I could come back to him he had crawled the rest of the way to his room and into bed.... HOW sad is that... my 3 year old son puts himself to bed!! He is really not feeling good... he wants too... Brogan was his usual wired self... crazy silly!! His papa was here when he got home from school and he was sooooo excited to see him... course the first word out of his mouth when he saw him was "papa" then quickly followed by "nanny", only she wasn't here. I haven't downloaded any new pics lately except those that are on myspace so you'll have to go there to view.... Not a very eventful day. Hagen has blood work early tomorrow then off to school then another doctors visit... I'll let all know how it goes. Thanks

Kell